My last term as a frosh is finally done. I had more workload this term compared to my past two terms in DLSU and honestly, when it comes to stress and school work, this term was freaking hell. Staying up late isn’t a good habit (I felt so ‘ugh’ every morning) and I barely slept just to get all the work done. And I can really say that everything has paid off.
I’m happy about how my grades turned out (except for math bleh) and how I still made it to the Dean’s List. My math grade sucks and I’m not too happy about it but I’m content. Math has always been a weakness, I guess. I barely passed my second long quiz and I’m pretty sure I flunked our final exam so I’m thankful that I still managed to pass the damn course. I didn’t bother talking to my professor anymore for consultation. It just felt sorta wrong to go through the hassle for a grade I know I don’t deserve. I swear math has been ruining my grade average since elementary. It just isn’t my thing.
This term has mostly been hell, but thanks to my friends, classmates and some of my professors, it was more bearable.
Taft isn’t quite ready to let me go yet. I still have to go to school for org duties and interviews. Honestly I just want to stay at home and be a lazy ass but duty calls. Oh well.
This is what I was doing all day.
Gave my blog a make-over (‘cause it’s summer and… I just felt like giving it a new look). My new theme still looks a bit similar to the old one because I kept the stars background and the light pink + gray color scheme. I love it too much to let it go. :)
All the code credits can be found on the about me page. :)
I just really needed to get this out.
Wake up, you’re a drama queen.
Why do I find it so hard to deal with disappointment?
God. Emotions are such a burden.
I just want to forget how to feel. Why is it so hard not to care?
Emotions down right suck.
Carry on like you’re supposed to be.
It’s so easy to tell yourself to get over it and move on but some things are just difficult to accept.
It’s hard not to be disappointed when you put so much effort into something and it isn’t appreciated.
Easier said than done.
And what bothers me most is that I’m way too affected by everything that’s happening.
I shouldn’t be.
Get away, hurry up, come on.
I know I can’t please everyone all the time.
Things won’t always go the way I expect them to.
Life isn’t fair.
I know that I shouldn’t let it get to me, but it does, and who am I kidding?
I know this and yet.. I’m being a pathetic fool by getting so worked up about all this.
It’s just really hard for me to accept failure. Even though I know it’s okay to make mistakes.
You need to fail once in a while, yes, so that you can get up and be stronger.
But what is wrong with me?
This is becoming a catastrophe.
I feel like crap. I feel so down about things that are beyond my control.
I did my best and that’s all that counts, right?
Hell no. I tell that to myself and all my fears about not being good enough is coming back to haunt me.
I thought I was past that already.
But now I’m over thinking and I hate myself right now for feeling this way.
It may be hard, but I’m trying hard to comprehend where I quit and where I should begin.
All these feelings are eating me, consuming me.
I just want them to go away.
I hope sleep will do the trick.
So I’ve been gone for a while. I haven’t updated in almost a month? Whoa. My acads has been eating my time a lot lately. I still have class ‘til the third week of April so I still have a few more weeks of school to endure. Vacation is within reach and I just can’t wait to just freaking grab it get my life back, haha!
A lot has happened during my absence from my blog, so here’s what’s been happening to little ‘ol me lately:
My babies!! <3
Okay so that’s pretty much it. The rest of my time has been spent on acads. Every other significant happening this month is school-related lol. I am buried in a pile of school work and I’m really hoping I can pull this all off and end up with good grades. I’ll be back on the third week of April to greet vacation! Ja neeeeee~~~
So here’s what’s been happening to little ‘ol me lately…
So yeah guess that’s it. Back to doing school work now. Feel free to leave me messages!
Awesome college friends. I’m the one in purple, hahaha. Click read more to see more photos. :)
I’m seventeen already, gaaaahhh I birthdays are fun and all but I hate growing up lol. I still feel like I’m fourteen years old or something, haha. Can’t believe I’m turning 18 next year… I can vote, get arrested and be officially an adult. YAY! - not.
So yeah, I had a birthday brunch (when I woke up my mom told me to get dressed so I wasn’t able to eat breakfast haha) with my family and I stuffed myself with lots and lots of food today. The coolest part about lunch was when the waiters sang and danced for me, haha. The birthday song they sang was really nice. :D Oh, and I got free ice cream too.
Giggling like an idiot ‘cause I couldn’t stop laughing. :)
This is my birthday gift to myself. :) Tickets to see Pierce The Veil and Sleeping With Sirens next month. So stoked!!!
So last year, I got a sketch of Zack from Chelsea. This is what I got this year, from Kuya Nico. I have the awesomest online friends ever. :)
I also got two birthday cakes from two of my closest friends. They both want to make me fat, lol.
So anyways, thank you to everyone who greeted me and made my birthday special! You all rock my socks. :)
My last personal post of the year. Please be reminded that my blog is personal and multifandom. If you don’t like posts like this popping up your dashboard, feel free to unfollow. :)
Last high school field trip… and the only time I went swimming this year, haha.
Not gonna lie, college is fun, but I miss high school. Things were way easier. Although I have friends whom I haven’t been in touch with since we graduated, these people are still a part of my 2012. Thank you high school batch mates, classmates and friends! I really do miss you guys.
The pictures on top is LR33’s very first block photo taken during LPEP. Next row, Jamba Juice Photobooth pictures during the US Election Watch. Last row, last few photos with my awesome blockmates during our very fun and wild Block Party. :-)
I’ve met a lot of great people in college and that’s one of the things I love about college. I’ve made a lot of new friends too. ♥
College is a whole new chapter of my life. It’s been great so far.. Learning new things, getting good grades after working hard for it, meeting new people, taking part in extra-curricular activities and getting a partial scholarship. Time flies by so fast and I don’t want this wonderful opportunity to simply pass me by. It’s been an amazing journey so far, despite all the stress and frustration. It’s definitely more fun in DLSU! :-)
Okay, The TC/SYG/WATIC concert isn’t exactly a music festival but since there’s more than one band I decided to include it anyway. I also went to The Cab’s mall show. It was really awesome seeing The Cab and Forever The Sickest Kids twice in one year. :-)
This was my first time watching a runway show and I only went because the musical guest is Kyle Patrick from The Click Five. I also got to meet him and omg sdfghjksdfghb this day was perfect because of so many reasons
Two hours to go ‘til the year ends and tbh, I’m not ready to let it all go. My year was just too amazing. I hope 2013 will be just as awesome. Who knows, maybe 2013 will surpass the awesomeness of 2012? I want to take this opportunity to everyone who made this year special. My family and my closest best friends, thank you so much for always being there for me. To all my online friends, thank you for sharing the feels with me, and for talking to me. Thank you to all the new friends I’ve made this year, for sharing moments and memories with me. Thank you to every single person (I’m sorry I can’t mention you all) who became a part of this awesome year. I think I’ve grown a lot this past year and my life is nowhere near perfect but I have a lot to be thankful for. 2012 is the best year of my life, so far.
Thank you for the memories. This year was beyond awesome and I cannot be any happier.
So besides getting gifts for people, these are the things that I bought for myself (and my sister lol ‘cause she wore all the clothes I bought before I could wear them hahaha)
For the second half of 2012, my planner has been a constant companion. Because of its small size, I usually bring it with me wherever I go (unless I’m too lazy to bring a bag) So anyway, this year has been amazing. It’s been more than what I’ve expected and I want to look back on all the great things that happened this year, using my planner. :)
There she is!
1 - Just a bunch of post-its that I use for my planner. I use it to be organized and make my planner look cute and colorful, lol.
2 - The first page.
3, 4 - Random pages
5 - The Post-It Page. This is where I place all the useless used post its lol.
6 - The photo was taken during our last day of INTGLOS class. (Introduction To Global Society) I had that subject on my first term and it is still by far, my favorite subject. My professor was THE BEST and the subject itself is AWESOME too. The subject made me love and appreciate my course and it helped me to realize that the International Studies program is where I want to be. ♥
1 - UAAP Men’s Basketball Round 2 - UST vs DLSU. This is the first game I watched with my blockmates and it was really fun!
2 - UAAP Men’s Basketball Round 2 - ADMU vs AdU, DLSU vs NU. Out of all the games I’ve watched, this one’s my favorite. (even though my team lost) It was my first time watching from the Patron area and I got photos with the team. I also had my first picture with my favorite Archer, LA. Mehehehe. You can read more about that here.
3 - My second photo with LA at a random school day. He did the “LA pose” with me and my friend and he smiled really wide and omggggg asdfghjkjhgfasdfg
4 - My third photo with LA, taken during the LSAL All Star Charity Game. Because of freaking CWTS, we were only able to watch the last quarter of the game. After the game, my friends and I ate at The Burger Project and watched a concert for Filkomu Class.
Okay, I’m such a fangirl when it comes to LA hahahah asdfghnfbasdfg
My schedules during my first and second term in La Salle.
BAZOOKA ROCKS WEEKEND. Read more about it here.
1 - This was the sign that I wrote and it won me and my cousin tickets to Bazooka Rocks. My planner was the only paper I had so…
2 - Concert Schedule!! I SURVIVED.
3 - Marianas Trench’s Autograph!
4 - My photo with one of my favorite bands, Marianas Trench and BRF marked on my planner. ♥
More awesome events, whoooppeeee
1 - Move To The Vibe of Glorietta Fashion Show. I’ve always wanted to watch a runway show and I can finally cross that off my bucket list. The Philippines broke a world record and I am happy to be a part of it. I saw a lot of celebrities too. My professor was also one of the models. How cool is that? Plus, Kyle Patrick of The Click Five was the musical guest and hearing him sing was amazeballs. I also got to meet him during his autograph signing session.
2 - FAASTIGAN 2012! We won first place! LR33 is the best block ever. ♥
3 - US Election Watch. My INTGLOS professor invited our block to go to this event and it was fun because I got to hang out with my blockmates, there was yummy FREE food and I like attending Embassy Events. :-)
4 - LR33 Block Party, Bonding with my sis and cousin, Birthday celebration of my siblings.
My 2012 planner is about to retire. This will be my new planner for next year. It’s a gift from my friend, Katrina. I loooove it and I can’t wait to use it.
From a really cute and colorful planner to a planner that looks more mature and umm… professional? I love the black and gold color combo and the studs! It’s so meeeee. A new year means new beginnings. I guess this symbolizes how much I’ve grown in the past year. I think I’ve matured quite a bit…. but there’s still some immaturity left, hahaha. Time flies so fast…. I don’t want to grow up anymore, lol.
2012, you were amazing. Before 2011 ended, I swore that 2012 will be my year. I didn’t know why but I had a really good feeling about it. This year exceeded my expectations and I’m very, very thankful. So many great memories and moments… all in one year? I can’t be any happier. My life is nowhere near perfect but I sure have a lot of things to be thankful for.
So I haven’t been posting any personal stuff lately, even though a lot of awesome things happened in the past months. My second term in college just finished and school work pretty much took up my time. Honestly, this term was hell. It was full of stress and frustration. Many have dubbed the second term as the HELL TERM and it certainly lived up to that. During the term, I kept wishing for it to be over. Now that it is, well, I kind of find myself missing it. Yes, this term was horrible (in terms of all the stress and hassle because we were being bombarded with papers and stuff) but there were a lot of good things that happened too. I learned that things are just gonna keep getting harder. College is never easy. But one important thing I realized is that I’m gonna have to toughen up as well. Things will continue to become more difficult and that means I have to work even harder.
I was really worried about my grades this term because despite submitting all the requirements, I didn’t know if my work was good enough.
I wanted to get at least one 4.0 in a 3 unit subject this term and I thought that wouldn’t happen. Surprisingly, I got a 4.0 in my Psychology class which is probably the hardest subject I had this term. We had a killer exam in this subject (prolly one of the most difficult exams I had so far) Anyway, I am really happy with my grades. I’m still a First Honor Dean’s Lister (hello advanced enrollment whooopppeee) and I hope I can maintain this for the terms to come. ♥
Another thing… I applied for a scholarship and I got accepted! I was granted a partial scholarship which will be effective next term. Another thing to be thankful for. :-)