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I’ve been there, anon…. 
Let me tell you, I’ve been there. Through somethings that honestly, gave me thoughts of suicide. Did I attempt it? Yes, one time..I did. But then I realized something that I want you to know….  Breaking down like that, and watching everything crumble..feeling helpless and useless; all of that is in your head. 

Life is simply unpredictable. No matter what, we will always go through hardships. It’s how we handle them, that makes us who we are. If something is so bad right now, that you feel useless — then you’ve already gone through your first step of fixing it. Knowledge that you think you’re useless. But you’re not. No matter how hard the situation, you’re going to have to look at it like this: 

1. Everything can always get worse. 
2. When you’ve hit rock bottom, it can only go up from there.

That is exactly how I look at my situations when I go through hardships. I analyze all of the problems that are actually happening. All of the feelings that I have, and I think about the good that can come from it, and how much worse the situation could be.  

Then, I tell myself this. “Everything. Happens. For a Reason.” 
This is what has gotten me through the hell I’ve experienced. It may sound like a stupid phrase or simple words, but when you really analyze it, it’s true. Look at things that have happened in your life and the outcome effects it has on you as a person.

What doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger. 
So do not do what a lot of people including myself have done, and think about suicide or anything of the sort. Because you have the ability to make it better. It’s whether you truly want to, or you truly want to watch everything crumble.

So, after I tell all of that to myself, what do I do to make myself better? I choose something that makes me happy and takes me into a better place. Final Fantasy / Kingdom Hearts , is my better place. I play them, I put myself into a world where it’s calm and nothing can hurt me. Perhaps music works for you, or drawing, writing, going for walks. Anything. & Then, if I’m having a breakdown where I’m crying and I seriously need to reach out to someone, I come on here. My followers have saved me from many horrible thoughts and sadness even just by a simple message that they care. So, vent. Do not be ashamed of your feelings. Do whatever it takes to smile. But never feel useless. Only you can fix you because only you know what you’re feeling, your weaknesses, your strengths and everything you’ve been through. 

Also anon, you can come to me and I will listen and help you through anything. That I can do. I hope somehow this helped and that you start to feel stronger soon. If I can do it, you can do it <3